I've had one actual, official girlfriend in my entire life. I've been on a handful of romantic dates. I don't think any of these facts would get my scout badge. I am very inexperienced. I couldn't tell you what a woman wanted even if it was readily available in the fridge. This has just now become apparent to me as I think over my previous relationships with girls.
I have no concept of the next level. I don't mean that I don't know when I'm supposed to take a relationship to the next level (if you pay attention, the girl probably let's you know). It's that I have no idea what to do at that next level so I ignore that it even exists. Obviously this is not healthy behavior.
The most obvious answer is that you're supposed to do what you feel is right at that particulair moment. Love is about the gut, not the mind. I have trouble trusting my gut probably. Maybe I'm not even in contact with my gut anymore. Sometimes I think I should be crying, like that would be the correct emotional response at that point in time; these are the times that I don't cry.
Perhaps I'm a much colder and shallower person than I previously thought. Maybe I'm horribly insecure and that fact hasn't reached my conscience thought yet.
In other news, I watched The Incredibles twice today. That movie is awesome. Pixar films always leave me feeling and thinking the same thing. I don't know how they do it, but that's definently the Pixar magic.
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